Waking Up With The Sun

Good Morning Dallas

Last week I wrote about sitting on the hood of my car, taking in the sunshine and cool air of the morning.  I was thinking about it myself today when driving to work.  I was thinking  what a great day I had at work and so I decided I wanted to try it out again today.

I drove as far as I could to the top of the garage and parked next to the rope that keeps cars from parking on the very top level, got out of the car and walked to the rooftop.  It is early so no one drives past the 4th floor that early and so it was just me.  Again, I sat in the sun but this time I was able to feel it's warmth in it's entirety.  These are the types of things I need to remember when the alarm goes off at 5 a.m. and I take those first few seconds to decide if I'm going to get up or not.

Hopefully, thinking of those things and how much better my days turn out to be when I go to the gym will continue to make it easier to find the rhythm.  Now that I don't go out during the week I eat better and get more sleep, making it then easier to get up in the mornings.  This is why I say being an adult isn't so bad.  Since I have stopped going out I have been much healthier and feel better about myself physically.  The gym and the routine has also encouraged the habit of being more diligent about my work and my schoolwork.  I'm still a procrastinator, I just finish the homework the day before instead of the day it is due.  Just seems like what they say is true... healthy habits lead to more healthy habits and success.

I really hate that I just typed all that out.  I feel like one of those herbalife people, except I'm not selling you anything.  And I try to get most of my nutrients from actual food... I know... call me crazy.  Although, I can't say that I wouldn't look into it if E wasn't the amazing cook that she is. She loves me so much that she cooks everyday because she knows that if she doesn't make food I won't eat that day.  I don't expect her to cook, it's just not that big of a deal not to eat to me.  I spent the past couple of years being very unhealthy about my eating habits, I just didn't do it enough.  There were times I could go almost 2 days without eating and not even notice it.

I starting writing those things about myself and I realize how unhealthy my life was and how incredibly lucky I am to have the life I do now.  But the thing about it is, when you are in that place in your life it doesn't seem unhealthy, and maybe at that moment it isn't.  Maybe at that moment in your life you are doing exactly what you need to do to get by, to stop the sadness from swallowing you whole, or some just need to "sew their wild oats", but whatever the case it is the right place at the right time in your reality.  But my reality is that had I continued to do those things, I would not be able to be successful in school or in trying to live a healthier lifestyle.  So now my reality is something much different from a lot of people I once knew, and I'm totally at peace with that fact.

So this was supposed to be a short blog about how I think I will start my mornings on the rooftop, spending some time with just me and the sun.  But it never seems to turn out that way.. I just keep typing as the thoughts roll through my head.  But I have to go... work calls ... which I must get done as soon as possible so I can then have time to work on my homework... so I can then I have time to go grocery shopping...so I can then have time to meal prep... so then I can go to sleep early enough to get up at 5am tomorrow and do it all over again.... and again... and again... ... ...